Ha!

Anyway it's been what?  3months since I wrote anything in here?  Yeah well we've been busy with other things, and other places.  Life just keeps moving though...anyway that is all I got for the moment or rather that is all I want to say here.  It is best to keep it short anyway, I have things to do. 

Until next time

I'm still alive and kickin'

Me

So you take two in the ass and one in the heart and keep right on going until the pain goes away.  Such is life, it's a bitch and then you die.  " That which does not kill you makes you stronger."  Neitchze ( I am sure I am spelling it wrong).  I swear this isn't a depressing rant of how life sucks...I swear it is not.  Life would be boring without a little suffering.  Pain builds character, and those trials make us stronger.  Suffering is a gift, treasure it, it will save you in the end.  No BS, I speak from experience, I have suffered many trials of my own that I survived..But that is the point I survived, I didn't die I wasn't destroyed by any of it.   Sure I suffered losses, but I gained too.  Always just when I thought " ok this is it, the end I have no where to go.." something would happen to pull me out of it or someone would come along at the last second to reach out that hand...When my mother died of cancer after suffering for 8yrs, I thought just that, I was finished.  There I was 24yrs old, with no job experience ( except babysitting and taking care of my mother through the illness), A father consumed by grief himself, I had no one to really take care of me then...But I didn't need anyone...I had myself.   I got a job, I went out and I looked.  Eventually I moved out of my fathers house...Of course life on my own had it's own share of trials I had to get through but I got through.   The next really awful blow in my life...Rape...I thought I would never get through the emotional pain, the physical pain the nightmares...I am still working on it but I know now that I will survive it, that it can't hurt me anymore...I have my bad days, like everyone has bad days.  I get depressed...But it passes...Life was never meant to be simple or easy..If it were we would never learn anything we would never grow...I am not saying that one should actively seek to put themselves in bad situations, but bad things happen to good people.   The world keeps spinning like it has for centuries life goes on.  Death is something that will come to us all eventually, one should not fear death it is only another journey like life is a journey..One journey ends another begins.  Be strong...

 

twilight

Not that anyone reads this but me...

 

Things have changed in a year.  I moved, got a new apartment on my own..I've been very extremely busy with work.   I almost died...Yeah well I guess so anyway...I went to the hospital with stomach pains, they poked me with needles, drew some blood, did a cat scan and ultra sound.  Apparently I had Gall Stone Pancreatitus, which can cause serious liver damage if not treated in time.  Loose your liver and you can forget living 'cause you only got one of those.  I had to spend a week in the hospital without any food or drink, the doctor wanted me to fast until the inflammation went away in my pancreaus.  There was a gall stone blocking the duct between my liver and pancreas causing the severe pain and the vomiting.  Here I thought it was just a flu...

Anyway, I did get better I am without a gall bladder now I had to be operated on to remove it.  I love painkillers...ha! 

 

Aside from this I have been busy with work, moving and writing..

 

Until I get bored again, and feel like updating..

 

Twilight

~sigh~ have I been negleting this thing again?  Ahh well.  New York was a blast!  I had fun, one of these days I'm going to get my pics developed.  I LOVED the musical it was awsome.  I admit I had my reservations about it, but I really really liked it.  The voices were beautiful, Hugh Panaro made the perfect Lestat in my opinion.  I never saw the show in San Fran but I heard there were changes...well whatever changes they made it was awsome.  Alison Fischer stole the show as Claudia she had this amazing voice so to Carlee Camillo( Gabrielle).  Despite what critics say of this show I enjoyed it.  It wasn't totally, exactly 100% by the books but it was in my opinion the best interpretation I've seen so far of the three I've seen.  I'm disappointed it closed, I will definately be buying the cast album when it comes out in July. 

 

I think I might plan another trip soon to NY, maybe go see Phantom or Chigago.  I enjoyed NY, it was huge, with billions of lights and crazy traffic lol.  I've never seen so many cars in one place it was unreal! Three days wasn't near long enough to see everything, I think my next trip I'll stay a week. Of course that won't be until next year...but it's something to look foward to. 

 

Anyway until the next time I'm bored and craving the sound of clicking keys...

Twilight